1. When Harry Met Sally
2. Amelie
3. The Graduate
4. The Apartment
5. Mary Poppins


BONUS QUESTION: (written by moi, of course)

What 5 TV shows on DVD would you bring?
1. The Muppet Show
2. Home Movies
3. Doctor Who
4. The Simpsons
5. Boy Meets World (no foolin')

I had my license plate stolen from my car last week. It's a really weird feeling b/c it's just a very strange thing that you never think about. I didn't even notice. My dad pointed it out to my mom, who decided to inform me at 4am that it wasn't there. oi. My dad subsequently had to take me to the train and pick me up in the rain. he was late.

then, in other car news....my dad went to his car yesterday in the garage to find a baby possum asleep on the hood. He wondered what to do...hit it with a broom? no, no chance of being attacked. Just keep the garage open and lure it out with food? again with the biting. So my mom and i watched as my father slowly backed out of the driveway and down the street with this frightened little marsupial on his car. It wouldn't fall off so, he stopped the car kind of suddenly and watched the possum scurry off the hood and run away.

For some reason i cannot tear myself away from the Olympic trials. I have watched both men & women's diving and now gymnastics. I think the only reason it's so irresistible is because they don't normally show these sports on TV. Plus, i'm trying to not watch the Crosstown Classic, since the Cubs have won the first 2 games. Oy.

Otherwise, i am currently missing a bbq in Chicago that i would have gone to, if it weren't for a hangover. Ironically, once i ate i felt better. Meaning that in theory, if i went and just ate, i would have been fine.

i'm so sick of nancy grace, i could spit.

Kate!!! Ghostbusters is on!!

I'll tell you why the new The Mole will, inevitably, suck.

first off, it used to be hosted by the one and only silver fox, Mr. Anderson Cooper (who my mom always calls my boyfriend, sorry Tom) Now, it's going to be hosted by some schmuck.

Second, they sexed it up. It used to be my favorite game show b/c they used to jet set around Italy, sipping wine and having five course dinners. It was a game of wits. By the previews though, it is now women in bikinis and sports bras actually having to run around and mountain climb and such. It seems like Survivor without the island.

Point in Case: why they shouldn't sex up reality tv:
-Remember the Real World when it started, and it was more about exposing peoples insecurities and differences and not sex? Remember Pedro who had AIDS and taught everyone something, or the Boston and Seattle seasons where it seemed to be more about living with a DIVERSE group of people and not how much skin they showed? i watched one episode of the Hollywood season so far and there is a stripper as a roommate, 2 of them are fucking, and one is going to rehab. (the rehab guy is actually the most endearing one)
-I know that sex sells, but what ever happened to having a brain? that's why i liked the Mole, it was smart people trying to figure out who the liar was. Now, i bet some of them will be screwing..oy

I will get off that high horse...

My weekend was a great mix of street fests, bbq and video games. Not only did i get to see Ted Leo and the Pharmacists for free, BUT Tom has downloaded all existing SNES and SEGA games onto his computer. Which i now have stolen on my external hard drive. Yay for reverting to childhood!I can't help but feel there will be a pj and video game sunday soon

8:30ish: stroll in with my coffee
9: first trip to the post office
11: second trip to the post office, get same post office worker as before and exchange in awkward conversation because of this
2: asked to go to the post office for a fucking THIRD time and refuse to go, i couldn't go, i just couldn't. sent someone else
2:30ish: no real work to do, went home

and you know what i did between all this postal nonsense? Played internet checkers (which i am getting very good at, btw), taught myself Access, Publisher, and Info in the Microsoft Office suite.

i know, be jealous.

and now i'm just wishing that i was tired enough to be sleeping so i can do this all again tomorrow. oy fucking oy.

yes, i know what you are thinking, that i have ditched my lj eons ago. no, no, mi petite flors, i have just taken a little break.

I made my first "adult" purchase yesterday by indulging in a new laptop, since i've had mine along with me for almost 6 years. it was time to say aurevoir. honestly. Thank you taxes, thank you, federal government.

otherwise, i think i am looking for a new career path. My job isn't much to be desired anymore. i'm really bored with it and in reality, i should stick with it (see: economic downturn) but i about to explode on my boss.

also, they have been lots of coyotes in my town. yes, i did say coyotes. There are apparently 2 packs of them roaming around and killing small dogs and bunnies and such. Scary business for dyer, but the town reports that no one has been bitten...yet!

Maybe we'll have some werewolves on our hands and they can roam our castle! (dyer does have a castle :) )

Home.

What can i say?

My grandma has been in the hospital for almost a week....

About 75% of the jobs i have applied for deemed me "overqualified" (wtf!?!?)

The other 25% get filled, right away, probably due to word of mouth.

I've been watching a lot of IFC and Sundance.

Half my stuff is still packed, in hopes that i will get to move somewhere else soon.

Weekly trips to Chicago are keeping me sane.

Knowing that i have something to do just about every weekend in September is keeping me hopeful.

Oh. and i know the secrets to the new "Batman".

Some things that i have learned in my 5 years at BSU/Muncie:

-You can't count on anybody but your own self. if you do, u are ultimately let down....
-There are some friends that you make and keep, but there are others that fall to the wayside....it is up to you who you decide goes where
-relationships, aka, boys in general, are "open" to things, but this does not really include ACTUAL relationships. (there are exceptions to this rule)
-don't get involved if you know your gut instinct is telling you otherwise, you must listen to your head. it's more reliable (see: Rob Gordon quote from "High Fidelity"----" i've been listening to my gut for years, and i've come to the conclusion that my gut has shit for brains!" (or something like that...)
-5 yrs and 1 degree does not equal a job
-you will do things you don't want to
-You won't think about certain things until later, see above
-songs you listened to in middle school become cool again if you remember them
-your parents become a lot cooler when they realize you are an adult, and in most cases they will try to help you a bit, they have most likely been there too...my parents got married young and lived off hamburger helper for months when they did...henceforth, never ate helper until college.
-things you liked a long time ago slightly re-surge in your life in mysterious ways
-apathy sets in a lot more...it's a sign of unhappiness
-sometimes there isn't a reason why things happen, they just do.
-you'll make decisions that you'll justify by saying...i'll give it a shot
-a friend in need is a friend indeed..but a friend with weed is better- ok i'm quoting songs, that would make illegal claims...
-No matter what you major in and what you do, if you can't master the microsoft family of programs, you're nothing
-people will promise you things..hanging out, keeping in touch, calling, a drink...but sometimes life gets in the way...you have to understand that
-no matter who you are, what you do, there will always be someone better and with more experience applying to the same job as you
-you ultimately find yourself trying to reconnect with people from your past if it the spatial factor works out...
-they always say shoes make the man, but i think if you are convincing enough, you can sell a broken radio in sandals

Applying and trying to get a job is harder than i thought it was going to be, not that i expected it to be easy, but i expect employers to actually email me back about the positions that they have open. But so far, not a lot of luck.

That's all i basically have to do this summer is try and get employed somewhere, even if it means that it is not related to my major. Seriously, any entry level job...fuck.

Just got back from Boston w/Shelby and Amanda. We found Shelby a place to live in Cambridge since she got an internship at MIT. I fell in love with the east coast and would prefer a job there. I always had a hunch about loving the east coast, and it was better than i imagined.

I came home today to find 3 neighbor girls digging for bugs on the side of our shed. A shout from their mother at the halfway house assured me that it was ok...whatever, i just thought it was a strange thing to come home to after work. But then again, i went through a bug digging phase.

Apparently, it is the LOST season finale and American Idol's finale as well, i don't watch either of these, but i bet half of America is interested in one or the other.

Don't you love it when someone says one thing and does another? As of late this is very annoying, especially when that someone is leaving and others may not be there when they get back. Sounds like a great friend, huh?

Anyways....

i just have to finish one paper tonight and take a test on wednesday and i'm done with my stuff at Ball State forever...weird...

i think i need the change though. It just seems like the right time.

Projects Left
-Geog. paper
-IG Midterm
-Worldwatch institute paper (finals wk?)
-Newspaper annotations (24th)
-Bowen paper (27th)

This Week
-Careers in Gov't (wed)
-GRE (thurs)
-be home for meter guy (friday)

Next Week
-Vasicko meeting at 1 (mon)
-IG midterm due (tues)
-Geog paper due (wed)


ok sorry if you read that. i'm at the library and i needed to prioritize.

There is a man who's computer i can see right now. He is most definitely watching old episodes of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer". He is a vertically challenged African-American. Normally, i would not mention his race, but i think it makes it funnier in this instance.

I came here to start working on my essay test for a book i have not yet read that is due on Wednesday, but i have not started. i'm getting easily distracted-i.e. New York Times crossword puzzles.

i need to purchase more coffee.

by the by, go rent "The Holiday". especially if you are really into crying during movies.

I don't sleep anymore, i just don't. I can't.

Boy Meets World comes on every night at 2am, i am always up and awake to watch it. I never wait for it, i'm just always up, it's kind of strange not to fall asleep until 3 every night (at least).

But this weekend, i'll have to get up around 6:30 every morning. i don't know how i'm going to handle it. My best bet is to get real worn out so that i can fall asleep at a decent time. I had a nightmare like 2 weeks ago, however, that i slept through the entire Bowen Institute. Hope this doesn't happen.....

In other news, i've been really upset with someone lately for not conducting themselves the way that i know how they are and what i think they should be doing. Which, i know, is kind of snobbish and too expecting of another person, but i am afraid that they are taking the little time we all have left together for granted, in which case, i guess i can't do anything about if it's meant to be this way....i just don't understand, i suppose and i'm being selfish about being their friend.

I graduate in a month and a week, approximately. I have no idea where i'm going and who i want to be....

Ok, the title is misleading for this entry. I had a blast during break..it's what has happened now that i am blaming on spring break.

as an attempt to have as much fun as possible, i ignored my take home test that i had, accompanied with a book that i neglected to pick up and read all break. i didn't sweat it though, so i started it last night and finished it early this morning...

as i was printing it out in the lab and putting it in my notebook, i found a copy of my syllabus....

not only did i read the WRONG book for break, but it's not due until NEXT monday. Which you think would be ok, but i don't really have the time to read the correct book before monday and do another exam. I am going to be in Indy all weekend for a political conference and there's just no way to do both.

so i am going to have to swallow my pride this afternoon and tell Dr. Baker that i ignored his syllabus and did what i thought i was supposed to (which was entirely wrong, turns out).

Oy.

Lesson learned, kids. ALWAYS double-check. no matter how right you thought you were.

i am rapidly running out of money, and i'm not quite sure what to do. It's only Febuary and i only have very meager funds to survive on until, i have no idea when. Money is so silly.

Plus, this weekend is going to be crazy. going to indy on friday and then Columbus on saturday. i think i'm going to have to pack some peanut butter sandwiches to live on. Kerouac style.

i will be missing Muncie gras (HA HA, like THAT'S a loss!) i would really rather not participate in 50 year old women showing their boobs, thanks.
plus, it's cold, like real cold.

We're supposed to get like 10 inches of snow today. Isn't that not exciting? I agree with Chat that we should just get a sled and tie it to Harpua and have him tote us off to class. I don't think Jamie would be too happy with us though.

I went to Mayor Canan's State of the City Address luncheon today. Trust me, it sounds a lot more prestigious than it actually is. Students for Ball State and from local high schools had the chance to ask questions and we got split up in groups of two. Thank god i got paired up with a guy from my media and politics seminar because we just laughed a lot and reveled in the fact that we'll be leaving this town within the year. We have both been here for 5 years and neither of us really knew anything about Muncie and it's problems, besides the obvious horrible roads and lack of snow management.

Speaking of snow, it's been snowing a lot today. Hence, i'm not going to my night class. i would have to be crazy.

we still have an approximately 85% full keg of killians in our mud room. How freaking tempting it that? but we must not touch it until friday. (rats)

i should still be in class right now but my prof let us out early b/c the room was "too cold". Who does that? not that i'm really complaining, but now i have to wait in the library until my group meeting.

speaking of stupidity, i emailed my group yesterday suggesting that we should meet earlier than 9:15 pm, say like 4:30, before my night class. only one person responded, so the lack of response OBVIOUSLY means that we are still meeting at the aforementioned 9:15, correct? WELL, one group member emailed me back later saying he came here at 4:30 and no one was here! FUCK!!!! Dude, have some common sense!! HE NEVER RESPONDED TO THE EMAIL!!! retard, so he probably won't show up tonight, b/c he is dumb, but whatever.

so in short, i'm not looking forward to:
A-explaining to the retard why we didn't meet at 4:30 i.e. lack of response
B-Walking home later tonight
C-Trying to get in contact w/this guy if he indeed does not show up
D-Giving a group presentation tomorrow

Group work is stupid, especially when the members of your group are dumb enough not to respond to an email and expect everyone to be there anyway. Fucker.

i'm sitting in the living room, listening to amanda scrape clay. We're waiting for it to be later and people to get here so we can have a poker night.

today wasn't too too exciting. i didn't have classes and i didn't have to work, but i did spend 3 hours in the library looking through court cases. sounds like fun, right? yeah..uh huh....

i don't know when to order my cap and gown..i'm waiting for someone to just tell me to go do it.

My ears hurt, like a lot. i think it's my lack of wearing anything on my head and walking to class. sounds sensible. Apparently iPod ear buds do not protect your ears from the elements.

now amanda is crunching on a bagel that she is dipping in a tub of cream cheese. (it's fun to say what other people are doing, it's like letting you in on my life. even if you don't want to be).

it's sort of strange dissecting myself the way i have been lately.

today was weird in a way i cannot describe. i had one on one time with all my roommates.
and it was really nice...


then jess, amanda and i went to the Fickle Peach. We met an older man there and he gave us each a chunk of chocolate from Spain. He told us that every Thanksgiving, some friend of his sends him about 25 bars of chocolate from Europe and in return, he sends his friend underwear from America. His reasoning being America makes better underwear, and Europe makes better chocolate.

We ate the chocolate all a little hesitantly at first, because of the whole don't take candy from strangers warning, but upon eating it, it was ectasy. He told us to just bite off little pieces and let them melt on the roof of our mouths and let it pour over our tongues. he also joked that even though he doesn't know us, that the chocolate was just about as good if not more better than sex......he was correct. The three of us devoured that chocolate, but carefully, making sure we savoured each bite. I swear to god, the taste and the feeling of it went straight to out genitals.

It's a weird thing to say about chocolate. but that older man taught us something tonight..and also inspired Amanda's painting series that she has to do this semester. We potificated to each other stories of how he got this relationship between the person that sends it to him. He said he went to Europe in his 20's, leading us to believe he may have been draft-dodging Vietnam perhaps. Maybe it was a romance, maybe it was a friendship he established, but either way, he established something roughly 40 years ago that he still treasures and still has.

but the point being was that a stranger shared a special thing with us in his life. something that he looks forward to every year and keeps his European connection, whatever it may be. and for this i am thankful because it opened me up to opportunities and hope that i may have something this special in my life someday.

it's a new year, it's my last semester. now here's the question: what do i want out of my last 8 months in muncie?

i love the people here. never before have i felt like i have had friends like i have now. i've had the same ones basically for 5 years with a few additions and a few subtractions, but the core has always been there.

i feel like it's going to be the hardest thing i have ever done to move away from these people. to move on, unless i live somewhere close. but that's something i don't know.

the new year's party at our house this year felt so final. and i had a blast. but what if i never find people like this again.......what if i never celebrate like that again?

i know i need to move on. i'll be 23 soon, and i need to get in my head that i may be moving on....but it's so tough. and i don't want to accept that yet.